The Blue Eyed Girl’s blog

What makes your best friend so special? 
Submitted by Jessmiloo.

My best friend is special because she listens to me no matter if I'm happy, sad, confused, depressed, anxious, or excited. She is always there to listen to me and tell me if I'm being crazy or not. My best is also always very honest with me and makes promises that she will always keep. We can laugh together, have fun together, and just spend time with one another. I know that she'll always be there. Always..

I have never been on my own. It's a plain and simple statement. Sure, I did leave to go to college but it wasn't very far away. My parents were still there to help me if something happened, Paul still slept in the same bed as me whenever he was around, and my friends were always there for me when I needed someone to talk to. I've never had to look to myself for anything. However, now everything has changed for me. I've found a new start in my life.

I've moved to Pittsburgh. Yes, I know it's surprising but let me explain why I'm in the land of the Steelers.

Basically, the last thing I need to do in order to graduate from Penn State is do my student teaching. So, they put me in the Greater Pittsburgh area, in which to teach. It was a scary thing to know that I would not be planning part of my wedding in State College and that I would not have the comfort of Paul and my home. Instead, I would be moving into a one bedroom apartment in a strange city that I really know nothing about. Granted, I am a huge Steeler's fan but never have I lived anywhere near the magical city. It's a change but a good one I think. It's going to give me a chance to shop for myself, work out, and do my work. I think that it's going to allow me to focus on everything that needs to be in order in my life.

Currently, Paul is here with me. He and I have been spending some quality time with one another but looming in the background is the fact that we won't be together everyday like we were in the summer. It sucks knowing that and I know that tomorrow when he has to leave there will be a part of me that will be ripped apart. I know that I'll cry because I'm weak when it comes to leaving people that mean everything to me. Paul even told me today that he was going to miss me. I really hope he does because I'll be thinking of him every minute. All of this loneliness will probably make me want to call him whenever I can.

My hope is that living on my own will make me love myself more. I hope that I can lose weight that I need to lose for the wedding and hope to write meaningful things. I want to reach a whole new level.

Lately I have been feeling exhausted every night and unable to focus during the day. I hate that feeling! I'm the type of person that likes to be productive and on-top of things. This whole being tired thing has got me wondering whether or not I'm sleeping like I should be or if I have Mono. Granted, I really don't think that I have Mono because I don't have the other symptoms.

Yesterday I started exercising because I have come to realize just how fat I am. Everyone says that I am no fat but I look at myself in the mirror and cringe because I know what I see and it's a woman that I would rather not see. My muscles don't hurt as bad as I thought they would. I went for a nice twenty minute jog, then did push-ups and sit-ups, and then I lifted some weights. I am bound and determined to get myself in the shape that I want to be in to start trying on wedding dresses.

Anyway, this is just going to be a short one because I really don't have any important things to say.

I feel guilty that I haven't take the time to write in this online journal. I have a tendency to get away from it for awhile and then come back. I know that there were a lot of people that did not care to know where I was and what I was doing. I don't blame you in a way because I think in this day and age we get so consumed with ourselves that we forget about others. Besides, I know that there are a lot of people out there that don't even bother to read what I write in here because they find it pointless. It's all right, I promise I won't be offended.

School has been the main focus in my life. Yesterday I took my only final of the semester and now I'm just working, sleeping, and relaxing. I start working everyday at the after school program for the YMCA next week. However, the good thing is that I will be able to have the mornings off so that I can read and write accordingly. Nothing makes me happier than reading a book for pleasure.

Currently I'm Reading:

I have to say that it has been a most inspiring read. My roommate, Sara, gave it to me for my birthday. I had spoken to her a few months back about how I wanted people to buy me books that they thought I would like instead of just buying me a random thing. I love reading and I think it's interesting when people chose books for you. It could be the cover that gets them interested or perhaps it is the subject matter. Whatever it is that draws them to the book and makes them think of you means something right?

Although, I have not been able to see the film I do enjoy the diary entries from the students. I have never been part of an inner-city environment and I think that this book gives me a good picture of some of the things that will have to be dealt with if I ever teach in an inner-city school. I found that some of the stories that the students told throughout the novel brought me to tears and made me realize the pain the students must have felt. I am very amazed by the skill that the students were able to show through their writing and how their passion for reading grew though the years of school.

The book really helped me start thinking about what kind of teacher I want to be when I finally graduate (December 22, 2007). I am a firm believer in reading and especially writing. I find that some of the most beneficial things I have ever learned was through writing and reading. There are so many children out there that hate reading but hate it without a good reason. I think that all a student needs to find is a good book that they find interesting or moving.

I can remember books that I absolutely hated but most of all there are novels that made me see the light. We can take for example my love for The Great Gatsby, I think that that was the first book to really get me thinking about characters and their motivations in a piece of writing. Paul, my fiance, does not remember reading it and that makes me upset but I am trying to understand why that book doesn't appeal to him. The other book that really got me reading is The Lord of the Rings. I remember when I first read those three novels. I was blown away! I fell in love immediately with the hobbit lifestyle and have always been fascinated with Middle Earth. I just recently bought the new J.R.R. Tolkien novel and bought a few other books that discuss his writing. I strive to understand more about the novels that I love. I am a book junkie and my hope is to reach out to some of my students and help them become fascinated with something as well.

Paul and I are now in the midst of planning our May of 2008 wedding. It is about a year away now and this means that we have to get going on the planning. It's going to be an interesting summer with him and I both working and planning a wedding at the same time. Not to mention, I will be moving to Pittsburgh for a few months to do my student teaching. Talk about wedding planning hell! I seriously don't know how I am going to student teach and plan a wedding at the same time. I guess I will just have to hope that my best friends will be there to help me along the way when I want to sit and have a nervous breakdown in my Pittsburgh apartment.

I guess you could say that my life has turned into a most exciting place. I am sure that I am going to write more in here when something comes up. Feel free to leave me a comment to let me know what you are doing and how you are. If you are just tuning in then please enjoy and I will promise you more updates.

I'm going to Las Vegas for Spring Break.

How excited am I?

REALLY excited!!

No, I haven't forgotten about this blog. I have just been really busy with school. The new semester has started with a bang and I am off to the races hoping that everything is going to turn out the way that I want it to. My fingers are crossed.

Much love everyone and I promise that I will update soon.

In which fictional world/universe/land/city would you most like to live?
Submitted by glenn is the new chuck.

I would live in The Shire from Lord of the Rings of course. It's peaceful and the people are nice enough. They may be a little short but that doesn't matter. I definitely think that a quiet place in the country like the Shire would do me some good right now actually.

When can I move in?

It's my first day of school today. I thought that I had an 8am start but found out that I just have classes from 2:30-5:30 today. I guess that isn't so bad. Not to mention tonight is the two hour premiere of American Idol. That's right one of my favorite shows is starting today and I couldn't be more happy about it. The only draw back is that it takes away from House MD which is another show that I like a great deal.

I'm unsure of what to expect but I'll probably write about it. So don't worry I am going to keep you posted.

Everyone is talking about the Indiana Jones movie that is starting production. I have to say that I am rather excited about the whole thing. I LOVE INDIANA JONES! I remember when I was younger I fantasized about being on one of Indiana Jones' adventures. I would see myself as a girl of 21 and he would fall madly in love with me and that the age difference didn't matter. Oh how I loved you Harrison Ford...(sigh)

Everyone is saying that they are unsure if it is going to be a good movie. I just want to wait and see what happens. I have a feeling that it's going to be a decent film. I mean think about it...how many damn movies are they bringing back: Rocky, Indiana Jones, Die Hard...seriously aren't you thinking there is a trend there?

Only time will tell.